To the Island of Misfit Blogs?

I can be indecisive.  At the store, I tend to ponder more than I purchase.  Yeah, I'm the guy who carries stuff around the store for a good 30 minutes before putting it back on my way to the door.  My wife knows not to send me to the grocery store unless absolutely necessary.  What she could do in 20 minutes takes me 2 hours 13 minutes.  So as I sit in a rambling internal debate on whether or not to finally bury this failure of blog, I'm trying to remember why I thought it would be a good idea in the first place and maybe, just maybe, find reason for its continuance.  Sure, along with the millions of other blog owners out there, it's nice to think that I have a voice, albeit insignificant, but I'm not so far disillusioned to think that I've got anything important to say or even worth reading.  There are a lot of good blogs out there, but this isn't one of them.  Thus the moniker "Fool".  No, the blog is not very good and hardly worth reading to the casual passerby.   Maybe it's time to just let it go.

But that's never been its intent.  The League's inception was supposed to be about community and  was started as an effort to share ideas, questions, and observations on life and church with friends in a private setting, since getting together for discussion proved to be difficult.  After a year or so struggling to keep the conversation going we decided to take the site public with hopes of adding some accountability to the posts.  And here we are again, a year or so later, still struggling to keep the conversation going.   Like the new exciting toy that now sits in the closet with the other crap, the League has lost its luster.  Yeah, I should just let it go.

The thing is, I need the conversation ... I don't get it at work.  I don't get it at church.  I don't get it at home (unless you consider the near constant repetition of  "Hey Daddy, watch this" a conversation).  Without it, I trend towards idleness.  Let's face it, life gets wearisome.  After investing so much of your day into your family, and kids, and work, and the general maintenance of living, it is so easy to just want to shut down and turn it off... and for me at least, waste away intellectually and spiritually.  It would certainly be easier to just let it go.  Free time for me usually starts around 8:30pm and ends a couple short hours later.  To be honest, I'd rather lose myself in the television or fling birds at smiling green pigs than force myself to think.  As pleasurable as learning can be there is something to be said for unhindered slothfulness .... But then there is that wasting away tendency.  Now I'm not so sure.

So I suppose I'll try to keep it going.  For my own mind's sake.  Though the League of Profound Fools may be down to a single fool, I'm not sure at this point, but the Island of Misfit Blogs will have to wait... For now at least.